Oh hey look… it’s July. Oops.
Oh to say that stuff has happened, would be an understatement.
I went and did it…I am back in school. I was supposed to start this month, but then my credits for the first class transferred over and so I didn’t need it…so I start Aug 3. Yay for me. Boo for less time than I even had before. But I’m trying to be optimistic…in the end its better for me and for S, and whatever makes our lives better…has gotta be good right?
Next up… I lost 35 lbs!!! Totally on my own. Then the bad.. I gained back about 15 when I started boredom eating at home…sucky. So this friday, ahem…tomorrow…I begin my P90X regime tomorrow. I have 2 other friends doing it with me, so should help keep on track…except they are doing it like 20 mins across the Valley, but hey, we will keep tabs on each other. I hope, ha.
S- my little monster- turns 3 next month!! My god time has flown by. She talks a lot, knows her ABC’s, numbers…I almost think she can read or she’s really good at memorizing books cause she “reads” her bedtime stories. I seriously love my child.
J- my ex, baby daddy, whatever- he’s around. Sober…for now. It’s odd for me. I lived without him and felt miserable half the time but it’s like I know…I can survive without him. He helps out with S…spends as much time with her as I allow him to. I’m not kidding myself… I do love him, but to actually be with him…I just can’t do it. There’s too much hurt, to much mistrust that I just can’t shake. There’s another factor to him, that I don’t want to discuss right now, but I don’t know if I want to add that to my life. I’m taking this as it comes but not holding my breath. He’s good right now…with S and life in general and that’s all it is right now.
All in all, it’s been a whirlwind few months but everything is OK. I am OK. Now, I wanna make that OK go to great.