Have you ever felt so completely and totally overwhelmed that you just shut down? That is what happened to me. November and December were a blur. The holidays were insane and then, I got sick like, ON Christmas Day. For three days, I slept. I had things due, stuff to research…but I just couldn’t stay alert long enough to focus.
On top of that, my daughter was home from school for THREE WEEKS (LAUSD- what are you thinking?). I love her, but, when mama works from home and my five year old is “so boreeeeeeeeeeeeeed”, I spend all day either trying to play with her and failing miserably, not playing with her and begging her every 5-10 minutes to “let me do just this one thing”. Then once the man got home, we had to discuss bills, food, schedules, and of course, spend time with each other to kinda mellow the insanity.
…and then I went to a tech conference. I was gone for 2 nights, and both nights (and days) I felt the exhaustion in my body from just everything. And even though I was in Las Vegas (woo!), I would get to the room and fall asleep at like 10pm. IN VEGAS. Just call me grandma.
We spend so much time being “on” as women, moms, friends, sisters, daughters…etc.. that we forget that we need to decompress too. I took a break. Unplanned and probably at the worst time but I needed to be “off”. It worked though. Today, I was so antsy to get back to my routine.. to get back to ME. I even took a meeting…and I have plans. So many plans.
But first…When’s the last time you were “off”?
I experienced a similar situation myself. On New Year’s Eve, I laid in bed and went to sleep before 12am. My husband announced the countdown, said “Happy New Year’s” to me and gave me a kiss, in which I simply turned my head and closed my eyes again. I don’t know why, but after my husband left the room to go tell his parents “Happy New Year’s”, I watched the rerun of the countdown on t.v. and cried….. not sure why though – perhaps from the relief that we (humanity) made it to 2013, past “Dooms” Day?? I don’t know?
I remained in bed until January 4th (of course, waking to eat and such). Then, after the 4th day, I pulled myself up, showered, then proceeded to clean my house and cook dinner – all the while complaining to my husband (sarcastically), saying “I sleep for four days, and now my house is a total mess!!” – we both laughed and continued on with our normal lives.
I was wondering where you were. We missed you but well deserved break. I don’t remember when I had one of those breaks but I hope it happens soon because I really need one.
I crashed on Dec. 30th after having 30 people at my house the day before. Fun? Yes. Insane? Yes Exhausted? YEP!
I disagree, you didnt take the time off at the worst time, you took it when you needed it most. That little bit of breathing room you gave yourself is just what you needed to come back stronger and more refreshed. I’m actually taking this whole year off so to speak. lool Im blogging/writing less, connecting(networking) more, making real lasting relationships.
i’ve been “off” for a few days because of snow. I cant wait to get back!